Just For Today

So in my profile I briefly mentioned I am unemployed due to layoffs and have been since Dec 28. Did I mention that my husband is about to be laid off as well? Do I even have to tell you I am scared and wondering "NOW WHAT?" I never ever imagined that at the age of 47, my husband and I would be scrambling for jobs.

I am a believer in the Lord and I want to be able to say I trust Him but this is where it gets tricky. You see, I was always under the impression that fear is a lack of faith, so this must mean I lack faith and trust? I know in my heart things will be okay. What I don't know is how and I don't know when but I know...IT WILL BE OKAY.

I just don't know how to relax and let go of this overwhelming fear of the unknown. Will we have to work at menial jobs and make menial dollars after having some pretty decent careers? Should I jump into anything? Will my husband find something that makes him happy? Do we have a right to expect to be happy?

I know we are not alone. In our small circle of family, friends and neighbors, we know at least a half dozen people who are unemployed or working at jobs they are about to lose. Our President says we are not in a recession but some of the signs sure point to it so I am having a hard time with those words.

I made up my mind in my conversation with God today that I will focus on "just for today to do all I can to be the best me" That includes job searching, dealing with friends, family and strangers and not looking ahead too far with a negative view. So my prayer is "Lord, just for today, let me make You proud of me."